WHEN YOU THINK ALL IS LOST REMEMBER THE RIGHT FRIEND

When you think all is lost?  What did you lose? What do you mean the right friend?

  1. let me tell you. My laptop did get messed up really bad. How bad? Bad enough that the trash-can looked like a nice new home for it, we are glad the garbage-bin opening was too narrow to fix this PC.
  2. Day in and day out for two weeks or more, the sidewalk continued to invite me to come out and smash my laptop to smithereens. We are happy I choose not to make the HEADLINES for my hometown.
  3. Frig, all I wanted to do was pull the guts out. We are great full I didn’t know how.

I can’t believe when I took this laptop into the GEEK SQUAD they asked for 259.99 up front, telling me All is lost, but they will do 100_1932their best with-out promising any progress of retrieving my files, my pictures, my documents, my anything. We are so happy I walked out taking my loss with me.

So there you have it. I was willing to suffer my losses rather pay up front for nothing.

  • Sure I cried somewhat.
  • Sure I lost sleep.
  • Sure I asked people I knew.

But no one could help me with this hacking problem. I was on  my own not knowing what to do. So I thought I would Change my room around, at least I am doing something rather furthering the destruction of my old PC.

Then out of know where I came across an old business-card from a friend I have not seen for quite some time.  I studied it for a while wondering if the numbers were still good, choosing the phone number in the center. I punched in the numbers and listened to the ringing. I was about to hang-up when the robot said to leave a message. So I did. “Hey hi, how are you. What are you doing? Why don’t you and your wife come for coffee. Or tea. Why don’t you guys just come. Anyway, have a good weekend.”    We were happy to answer the phone the next day,  it was my old friend. I spilled my guts.

WHEN YOU THINK ALL IS LOST / Remember the right friend.

I had no idea my friend had any computer skills, but here I am.  Maybe I lost my documents and pictures and videos but I am able to use my old laptop to start over again only this time . . .I will never click on a pop-up again. “That is what happened in the first place. A pop-up told me to download WINDOWs 10 before July 29,2017 and I did. OUCH!”

 

 

I NEED HELP ANY HELP WILL DO

I need help

What kind of help?

Deterioration

Of the mind or of the body?

Both

Do you stretch like a warrior readying for battle?

Yeah

Do you keep your notes in order?

No

Well that’s your problem!

How is that my problem

You don’t know how to prioritize.

What!?

You need to learn that you need to know everything you do should be finalized before you do anything else!

That’s a lot of stuff

Priority precedence back burner front burner?

So basically I need a secretary

If that will fix your head. But what about your muscle and core?

Drink water and stretch like a Bastard

No! Warriors are not cartoon!

Bahahahah I didn’t mean that

Strength Agility Grace.

I allow my self to falter then

Yes!

I need help

Any help will do.

 

WHEN YOU FALL BACK/EGOCENTRIC

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WHEN YOU FALL BACK into an old routine, don’t give up on your own self so fast. You got where you were and you will get back and you already know it was not easy, something there like that. Failure is hard on certain people causing activity in your ego to act out.

My egocentric is acting out therefore I have lost control. I made a video and put it on YOUTUBE > title> Earth has 27 days to live.

What did one guitar say to the other?

Riff riff.

 

THE BIRTH OF SUICIDE/FIRST DEGREE MURDER

I HATE THIS PLACE. YELLING AND CALLING NAMES AND NO LISTENING.

so I freak out trying to get you to stop talking and let me talk.  Let me answer one of your rantings.  I am only seven and you never listen to me.

IT’S ALL MY FAULT FOR BEING STUPID

what else are you.

An IDIOT AND DUMB AND NOBODY LOVES ME THATS WHY I WANT TO KILL MYSELF.

WHAT!

  1. Because I love you I won’t spank you for saying that!
  2. You kill yourself for nothing and no one.
  3. EVER!

Well I DON’T WANT MOMMY TO EVER TOUCH ME AGAIN! I’m GOING TO KILL MOMMY!

Noooooooooooooo

SHE SAID SHE’S GOING TO KILL ME.

Nooo, she’s your mother.

I DON’T CARE. SHE DOESN’T LOVE ME ANYMORE SHE LOVES JUDY MORE THAN ME SHE LOVES ALL KIDS BUT ME.

No she loves you.

NO SHE DOESN’T SHE DOESN’T LOVE HER OWN KIDS SHE LOVES EVERYBODY ELSES.

But I love you. I always listen to you.

EVERYBODY THINKS IM STUPID

I don’t.

You yell at me too

Yeah but only when you get mad and crazy and I will never allow you to get like that at me.  I am your Grand! I am your grandmother…I’m your, wisdom and teacher. I teach you lots of things and we have fun right. We talk don’t we. And I raise my voice. I do not yell at you.

Yes but daddy said I am never leaving this room again, and I can’t go to school, and mommy took everything away from me and she is taking my cloths and everything and she hates me, so I hate everybody cos nobody cares about me.

But look at you, you don’t want to learn with me you want to play your video games and stuff, you want to watch TV and nothing else.

I’m in my room for the day. For ever! I hate myself and want to die! I’m so stupid stupid stupid.

Nooooooo, it’s not you. Your mother and father are dumb! But only because they don’t  know how to talk to little kids.

THEY JUST YELL AND HATE ME AND TAKE ALL MY STUFF

Shh shh shhh,  no no no now. Mommy had a bad daddy,{grampa whoo}, mommy’s daddy never talked. He always yelled and called bad names and said every bad word all the time.  That is all he did, yelling and calling mean bad names. Soo, mommy does not know how to talk right, especially to kids. And you are a kid!

Yeah HERS…

Shh  now now, lets just talk.

She hates me.

No she loves you. She just doesn’t know how to be a nice mother and nether does your dad.

HE Is just dumb.

Yes . Yes he is.

They  both don’t know how to talk to kids.

YES THEY DO THEY TALK NICE TO ALL THE OTHER KIDS EVEN THAT STUPID STUPID KID AT FOOTBALL

Shh shh okay. Okay you’re okay.

No I’m not.

Yeah you’re not. But I want to tell you, not all mothers yell at kids. My mother did not yell at me and my sisters and brothers. If my mother said to me, “sit down.” and I didn’t sit down, she came and picked me up and sat me down, hard. She said nothing. if my mother told me to shut-up and I didn’t, she would come to me and slap my face so hard I would fall off my chair. She said nothing. If my mother told me to go change my clothes and I didn’t,  she would drag me to my room. She would take my clothes off me, put clean clothes on me then throw me outside. She said nothing.

Did your mommy love you.

My mother gave me away when I was 4 months old.

How come.

I don’t know I was a tiny baby.

How did you get to your family?

She came a took me away when I was seven.

And then did she love you.

No!…She would hit me when she was mad. If she was mad at my dad, she would beat me when he went out the door.  She would give my sisters and brothers milk money for school, but not me, she would say, if you want ten cents go ask your dad.

Why did she do that to you?

Maybe she didn’t like me, I really can’t tell you. But I can tell you lots and lots of mommy and daddy don’t know how to talk to kids, and lots of mommys and daddys hit their kids. But that may be, their mommy and daddy didn’t know how to talk to them.

This is sad to hear coming from any child.  No child should want to kill him self or any one else at the age of seven or any age as far as killing goes.  Killing is for hunters.

IN SITUATIONS LIKE THIS TELL SOMEONE

After all just the fact you hearing this, should be liable in a court of LAW, solely for the same reason [ you can not stand and watch a body drowned], even if you can’t swim. And forget about the undertow cos the currents are streaming the person out to sea while you fret not knowing what to do,  {you’re arrested for being a coward}? The best thing was to run for help.   Just like now. The child and the parents need to be told on before, the child takes a strong hold of murderisum {if it is not a word it should be},growing to hate and kill. It is very visable at this point in time.

NOW WE NEED TO WONDER IF SEVEN YEARS IN THE MAKING OF THESE FIRST YEARS OF GROWTH CAN BE CORRECTED.. As you have been warned many times, over the years of childhood studies, how crucial the first 5[FIVE}years of life is after birth. CHILDREN ARE SPONGES, THEY LEARN EVERYTHING YOU ARE. Which means  {you’re everything} they have to go by. All how you are they will be {in their} own way though, how they see and understand things to be by your teachings.

THE  BIRTH OF SUICIDE/FIRST DEGREE MURDER

It’s obvious the world is responsible right? Only things can’t change. The teachings in school MUST change if PARENTS can’t.

What?, half the world is haters.

the other bit is scared.

while the rest do their best to teach peace and compassion, live and be strong.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

GRANDPA WHY ARE POOR PEOPLE SAD THEY HAVE NO MONEY

“Grandpa why are poor people sad they have no money.”

What kind of question it that. Yup, laugh.

“Well grandpa I just want to know why some people get so crazy cos they have no money? Don’t they even know they don’t have to pay tax?  My friend’s dad has lots of money and he has to pay tax to the Government and it’s his own money. That doesn’t make any sense to me grandpa.  I just don’t get it. If it is his money, then why grandpa, why does he have to pay money to have money.”

Listen kid why don’t you go out side for ten minutes and get some air.

“Grandpa. I don’t want to go outside for ten minutes.”

And I don’t want to answer your question.

“Well come on there grandpa, how am I suppose to learn if you don’t teach me.

I teach you lots of things kid just not stuff like that.

“Well what if I want to grow up and do nothing, then I won’t have to pay tax on working hard everyday to make money.

Now how dumb is that kid how are you going to eat or anything.

“No grandpa, I stay with you.  And Sally said her dad made them all go poor,  because he didn’t have money to pay [money tax]. Sally said her dad worked really hard everyday. And now grandpa, they don’t have a house anymore.”

You want them all to come here?”

“Grandpa, no, stop, you’re making me start to laugh.  Sally has to live with her uncle. She told me she hates her uncle…

Listen kid.  Get outside and roll around in the mud or climb a tree but get out of my way.

“Okay grandpa, but just tell me.”

  1. Sure for 50 cents.
  2. Then ten more cents for the fifty-cents.
  3. Now get out of my way.

“Grandpa I don’t have fifty-cents, and why 10 cents more?”

In case you want your 50 cents back I’ll still have 10.

“GRANDPA BUT SERIOUSLY THOUGH- WHY DO WE PAY TAX ON OUR MONEY.”

So you can keep it.

“But grandpa…”

That’s just the way it is kid, so slap yourself to the back door and open it for me.

  • Yup here we go.
  • knock yourself out laughing.
  • Maybe learn to laugh with your eyes opened and your mouth shut.

“Grandpa I can’t help it, it’s your face. You did this with your face.”

  1. Yup okay fall.
  2. Then make me trip.
  3. Then laugh more if I brake something.

“Grandpa, it’s all good, let me carry this for you. I don’t want you to fall.”

If it will help get rid of you take it. Laundry room is that way.

“Cool grandpa, give me the basket so you won’t fall down.”

Yeah, here take it. Now go sing a song for about an hour.

“Oh grandpa you’re so funny. I love being with you.”

Yup. You’re a good kid. A little odd, but I’ll take it.

“So grandpa, about the taxes…?”

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MY BILLS ARE LASPING..CULTS

Holy shit, look who’s back.

Yes. It is me! I have been away just like some people, and we all come back, just like me.  am back. Nut I can tell you, “it was not all fun and games.” Holy shit work? Plenty of work, tons of work. But not the paying kind.  “Is there cult work?”

Many a good meal to be had though.

Yup!, desert almost every night. and when there wasn’t, “let me tell you.”  We did without. Plenty of juice, tea, water and coffee though. And in that order as well. “One out of the three wasn’t bad for me.” Coffee. lol The water tasted like rust and smelled like poop, as for juice I don’t choose to drink it, which left a cup of tea once in a while.

  1. So now you are home.
  2. And back in every bodies way.
  3. Unpack, put things away.
  4. Clean-up the mess left behind for the return.

At least this way, my above chores will give all of us time to adjust to my home-coming.

🙂 happy to say I found some time to write a few things down. I also learned some things.  One thing particular I am not pleased in learning, cos, “it is chewing at me wanting more of my attention.  But I do not want to know more and I prayed that I can stop singing the song.  I fear bad can only come from it.”

Sucks to be you!

Eat crow you ass dick! I am much stronger in my sole right down to my shoe.  “Mommy!”

Bastards when children are involved? !, You never go after the child. But here, “130.00 kids”, just went missing, and go on to say this is a real happening event in the year 1284.

TWELVE-EIGHTYFOUR

A BROKEN PROMISE

ONE HUNDRED CHILDREN

TRUE EVENTS

THEY MADE A MOVIE 1957

THEY EVEN WROTE A SONG

FAR BE IT FOR ME TO PUT IT IN THE MINDS OF HEADS.

“FIND OUT ON YOUR OWN.

So welcome back and get rid of that shit out of your head.  “Yup. No time for wicked, no time for dead.” But it is going to be hard, because it is packed in there real tight.

And why is this?

Let me tell you. “I put out, one hell of a good research on the above info., and after the first initial thoughts of this luring intriguing hunt, I wanted more of the truth, I wanted to find any historian record of actual proof.  So I searched and forgot the living.

My brain took over for a few days until I, realized ,

  • I am thinking evil thoughts.
  • I am not thinking of people around me.
  • I am wasting my life on the dead.

That all was getting pretty intense, I even remember some of the song, the bad stuff, which continue to play over and over in my mind or out loud. “Crap-o-la! This will not do! I am much stronger in my soul with my heart to shake this true event, this mythical story told from 1284.

Besides . . .As I fell prey, to this earning to know more shit, my bills are lapsing!

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WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME-YOU

 

ANSWER

YOUR MIND. MY MIND.

                                       HUMAN BRAINS ARE /IS OUR OWN ENEMY

This is 100% real.  You can trust this answer to be true.. We ,I , You allow our brain to tell us things, that we THINK, Is happening.   Yes you, I , we are being teased !

TEASING starts by someone liking us or taking interest in us where >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

somebody else, miss used that fun..

That is when things get out of hand with everyone else including YOU , ME , THEM.

Then our Brain takes over without us realizing we just lost control of reality.

LET THE GAMES BEGIN

This is now [WHEN WHERE WHY WHAT and WHO]comes into this little fiasco causing My mind Your mind Every ones mind/ to play tricks on us controlling our every thought to the point of>>>>>>>>>>>>>NOW WE CAN’T DO SIMPLE EVERY DAY THINGS! ? .

As a Human people the brain can not be understood. But you can learn to understand just how powerful the brain is.

FOR INSTANCE

  1. The brain has the power to heal the body.
  2. The brain can make one see Any thing.
  3. The brain can and will order you to kill yourself.

So in knowing this, you can understand, how easy it is, for you to believe something is WRONG with you, when there is nothing wrong at all.

  • When you start thinking everyone is looking at you,
  • Who are you looking at? EVERYONE!
  • Why do you walk into a room and look at everyone?
  • The same reason they are looking at everyone.
  • What goes through your mind entering a room?
  • Where did your reason go for entering this room?

IT IS ALL CALLED INTEREST

Pay attention to your brain and stop allowing it to ask, what is wrong with me-you!

But really I should not have said me, this is about you. I understand my brain which took some time.

  1. BUT I HAD TO ASK.
  2. They made me take pills.
  3. I felt better at first.
  4. Then my hair started falling out.
  5. That’s when I had to figure out my BRAIN.
  6. I weaned myself off the pills, it was long and trying.
  7. I fought hard.
  8. I won.
  9. my hair does not fall out any more.
  10. I live I love life I let people say what they want I look at them too I say what I want.

NOTHING WAS WRONG WITH ME EXCEPT MY BRAIN WOULD TELL ME THINGS THAT WERE NOT TRUE.

BUT ONLY BECAUSE I MYSELF WOULD ASK WHY! WHY ARE THEY LOOKING, WHY ARE THEY TEASING ME.  why why why.!

So of course my brain had to answer my question.  It whispered to me.

something is wrong with you.

Then my mind played with all sorts of thoughts, like, “what is wrong with me?”

So then I found myself guessing!     GUESSING?      Guessing?  Really.

THEN it is obvious NOTHING IS WRONG.

If you find you are GUESSING.  Give your head a shake.  and ask yourself why did the chicken cross the road!

  • Guess away.
  • But your answer will be wrong.
  • Just like nothing is wrong with you for being looked at by being teased by no standards.
  • JUST your BRAIN trying to answer something it can not.

Your brain your brain it’s playing that game where nothing is wrong with you but you tell it there is. It’s YOU!  YOU ARE WRONG WITH YOU.

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